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im missing you @ 6:24 a.m. on 2003-03-14
Truth is, I have no idea why I've been "gone" so long. I just feel like I've had nothing to write about. But more than likely, I probably finally had something to write about.
Well, I will attempt at updating some...
I rediscovered my love for film. I had put it on hold for so many months. An old friend asked me to do a video for her school project...I willingly spent 35 hours on editing it. She got an A. I found out that I can edit in West Memphis High School's media lab, instead of on my shitty computer.
Upon premiering it, West Memphis School District is making a bunch of changes in their highschool so that all Advanced Placements students have to take their Media Lab course and I am now hired to do videos for their art department.
And at Marion...I have the Newspaper Sponsor, Computer teacher and Career Action Planning coordinator interested in starting a Radio/TV Broadcast. It will call for my helping them organize it, getting equipment, teaching the younger kids and hopefully have it up and running by the year or two after I graduate. Wahoo!!!
Yup, I love film.
Hmm...
Yesterday afternoon, after school-K,A, and I went to the college fair. It was boring...those things are always the same...same Arkansas colleges and christian colleges.
I was standing behind K and A while they were looking at some christian college. I was getting all antsy and was turned around, looking at people. I happened to look past this red haired girl sitting at one of the college help tables. She smiled at me. I smiled back. Typical southern courtesy. But, I noticed that she was still looking at me. When I looked back at her, she mouthed, "Hi!" and waved. I walked over to her. She looked at the guy sitting next to her and he got up. It was so cute...she had it all planned or something. We exchanged names. She assumed that I was going to college already and I corrected her with the lame, "I'm 17." She thought that I was her age...22. I wish. She flirted some. I didn't flirt back, but was nice. She asked if I wanted to do something and I told her that I have a girlfriend. A beautiful, lovely, intelligent girlfriend at that. It was nice. She smiled. I smiled. And, I went on my merry way...
We looked at some more schools. The Army guy was there...he bragged about my ASVAB score and I told him that I was no longer interested.
At school the other day, during lunch while everyone got up to get something to eat, it was just C and I. C and I don't really get along too much. But, she told me that there was something she wanted to talk to me about. She told me about this preacher who said "Homosexuality is wrong" during his sermon and just went through it like it was nothing. I told her that that is just what he believes...she knows what she believes is right and she has to stick with it. Preachers aren't perfect. Neither are we. We just go with our heart. It really meant a lot to me that she came to me to talk about it. I don't much like talking about christianity, but I know about it, so I can help her the way she wants me to. But what really meant a lot to me was that she came to me to talk about the homosexuality "issue"...my friends don't know I'm gay...they just know I am very accepting and love everyone. It was nice.
Tara is grounded. Of course, it is upsetting because I feel like it is my fault from the phonecalls that she made here. It's just 2 months...2 months is nothing when it comes to a lifetime. I love her and want the best for her. I hope she knows that.