a lesbian in her air force ones
im missing you @ 2:17 p.m. on 2003-02-15
I told Trey.
I couldn't stand it anymore. I told him that I'm a lesbian. He said he knew. That made me happy. He said he could tell I was lying before then. I'm glad that someone saw it. Other people seem so oblivious...so spaced out. I guess that's denial. I told him that I have a girlfriend. I don't know that he was happy to finally know the truth, but I know that it probably made so much more sense to him now. It made me feel more at peace...it helped me to know that's one less person I have to lie to.
I'm sick of "lying by elimination"...but, what do I do when my friends say "Holly, don't you think he is so hott?" Do I agree, to avoid conflict? Do I explain that he is a nice looking man, but the woman beside him in the swimsuit is the one that strikes me most? Or do I pretend I didn't hear them?
I got a call from an Air Force recruiter in Jonesboro. We talked for a few minutes...about what I wanted to do. I told him that I'm taking the ASVAB next Tuesday and he let me know that he would be waiting on my scores and then send me some information. He asked me if I had any kids on the way or was planning on getting married anytime soon...
Tara is right. Hiding this forever is not what I want to do.